Being "galau" again

ah, this blog should be a place for sharing some kind of goodness, not something that useless. But what I could write right now is about my fears, may bad, my confusion about my own life. May be doesn't have any advantage for other people. but this is what I'm thinking right now.

a couple weeks ago, I read a book, about "nikmatnya pacaran setelah pernikahan" and also I have posted that book on this blog. It much more changes, more precisely, remind me again about my religion rules.

It such a big "alarm" for me. remind me that what I did along this time is something that makes me far away from My God and his grace. but as time goes by, I don't read again that book, that "reminder" seems become far away again. And I always realize it if I have done the sin. Always. Then regretfully think about what I've done, but after that I did again, again and again.

This regret become useless. I do disappointed with my self, why I couldn't hard to fight this lust while I already now about the rules. Should I life far away from this crowd ?

oh God, give me strength to fight all this, I want be on Your side, on Your grace. Live base on Your rules and Your Rasul sunnah. aaminn ya robbal aalamiinnnn

An Inspiring Couple, Habibie Ainun

A book that written by Habibie.Tell us about their amazing and romantic love.

When Ainun treated in Jerman's Hospital, Habibie is faithfully to accompany ainun along the treatment time. Never wanted to leave her.

Gak ada Inspirasi, hahhhhh

Nulis apa ya ??
Hmmmm...
Gak tau nih mau nulis apa. "Inspirasi" lagi kosong hhe, coba nyari-nyari di twitter gak ketemu-ketemu juga.
Ya udah deh, karena gak ada inspirasi, postingan hari ini saya beri judul "Gak ada Inspirasi" hehe.

Sebenarnya inspirasi bisa datang dari mana saja. Pengalaman sehari-hari, baik yang tidak menyenangkan maupun yang menyenangkan. Bahkan inspirasi biasa datang dari pengalaman orang lain. Tergantung kita bagaimana mengolah kejadian-kejadian yang ada di sekitar kita.

"Ketidakadaan" inspirasi ini (hehehe, aneh ya bahasanya ?) mendorong saya untuk menjadikannya inspirasi untuk menulis postingan hari ini. Menjadi pelajaran juga buat saya, bahwa hari ini ternyata saya lalui dengan banyak kegiatan yang kurang bermanfaat, sehingga bingung, bagian yang mana hari ini yang bisa dijadikan judul sebuah tulisan.

Sangat iri dengan orang-orang hebat yang mampu membuat tulisan setiap harinya, bahkan bisa lebih dari satu tulisan. Tulisan mereka pun selalu "berisi", gak asal nulis hehe.

So, lakukan hal-hal yang bermanfaat setiap harinya, minimalisir kegiatan-kegiatan yang "sia-sia". (Pesan keras untuk diri saya pribadi :D )

Happy writing!!! :D

Waiting for my flight :D

This is my ticket for flying to Makassar. Now is 8 o'clock pm and my flight is at 11 o'clock pm. Still have to wait for three hours. But that's okay, because the signal is good heheh.

This is my holiday flight. My first holiday after finishing the exam for first semester. It feels so relieve when we've done the exam :D

Along this semester there many things that I got. Not only about the lesson, but also about relationship with friends. This semester going so fast, only four months. In this first semester I took 4 lectures. There were Macroeconomic I, Microeconomic I, Econometric I and Mathematics. All that lectures were full with mathematical equation. Made me "a bit" confused. But fortunately, I have many friends that could help me to understand what I hard to understand.

Oke, back to the "my fight" heheh. Actually, I'm so affraid to fly. I always think negatively if I'm on the plane. May be this is because there are many bad news about plane crash. >_< . If talking bout bad news, I do really hate the media. If only I could use my laptop on the plane, may be it could help me to face the fear. Oh Lord, give me peace on my mind and soul :D

*what an unimportant writing hehehe

Target 2013!! :D

Sudah desember aja nihhhh..
Yukk rencakan target untuk tahun 2013 nanti :D

1. Bayar SPP dari usaha sendiri
2. Menyelesaikan studi S2 dari PPIE FE UI
3. Bergabung dalam satu organisasi penelitian
4. Punya perpustakaan pribadi
5. Pertama kali keluar negeri tahun November 2010, ke Malaysia. Tahun ini harus bisa keluar negeri lagi :D !
6. Nikah :)

Ini punyakuuu
Mana punya mu ??? :D

Teman yang baik adalah rezeki :)

Banyak yang mengukur, termasuk diri saya, bahwa rezeki dari Allah itu adalah materi, baik itu uang, mobil, handphone, laptop dan benda-benda mahal lainnya. Dan jarang kita sadari bahwa rejeki Allah bukan hanya materi itu saja.

Mungkin saja Allah belum memberi kita rejeki dalam bentuk materi tetapi memberi kita rejeki luar biasa lainnya melalui cara yang lain, salah satunya yaitu dengan menganugerahkan kita teman-teman yang baik.

Hal ini yang sedang saya rasakan saat ini. Dipertemukan oleh Allah dengan seorang teman di FE UI, namanya Naya. Dia sangat tertarik dan aktif di dunia anak-anak dan mulai terjun ke dunia ini, coba nebak hehe, sejak masa kuliah S1 nya di ITB. Saat ini dia dan teman-temannya mendirikan Sekolah Bermain Matahari. Saya ikut bergabung di sekolahnya, awalnya hanya ingin coba-coba, soalnya belum pernah saya rasakan mengajar anak usia balita.

Setelah datang 3 kali pertemuan dan mengikuti training dari teman-teman Psikologi UI, hari pertama, saya sangat merasa beruntung dapat bergabung di sekolah ini. Pengalaman yang benar-benar tidak akan didapatkan di dalam ruangan kelas formal. Kegiatan yang dapat membangun kreatifitas, kepercayaan diri dan yang terpenting membangun rasa emosional yang tinggi di antara para kakak-kakak pengajar di SBM itu sendiri. Dan kami, para calon pengajar yang mengikuti training ini, tidak membayar sepeserpun, beruntung banget kan ? gratis dan dapat ilmu pula :)

Inilah mengapa saya mengatakan bahwa Allah telah menganugerahkan saya rejeki yang luar biasa melalui teman saya ini. Ketika di ruang kelas mungkin memang nilaiku sedikit lebih tinggi dibandingkan dengan Naya, tapi pada bidang pendidikan anak ini dan di bidang-bidang lainnya, saya bukan apa-apa dibandingkan dia. Ini menjadi pelajaran yang berharga pula buat saya, bahwa ketika kita memiliki kelebihan jangan sesekali merasa besar kepala dan sombong. Pelajaran penting lainnya yang saya dapatkan juga adalah nilai yang tinggi tidak akan ada artinya ketika kita sendiri tidak memiliki manfaat untuk orang-orang sekitar kita. :)

So, pesan untuk pembaca dan terkhusus untuk diri saya sendiri, berusahalah untuk selalu menjadi orang yang  berguna bagi orang lain, sebagaimana sabda Rasullullah saw yaitu sebaik-baiknya manusia adalah manusia yang bermanfaat bagi orang lain :)

Once again, Friendship!

Once again, I'm writing about friendship. This is what I mostly thinking about along this day.
There are so many people around us that could be our friends, best friends, even "special" friend. hehehe
The more people around us the more diverse character that we could learn about it. Along the "learning process" of the characters, there are several things that we have to understand. (All of this is based on my experiences).

First : We have to understand that each people has their own character so we have to know that  our point of view about something won't be same for all people. So we have to have a big understanding about it.

Second : Because each people has their own point of view about something so we can't force the people to accept our opinion. Sometimes we think that our idea or opinion is the best thing then we hard to accept what other people think. This is usually be the causes of a conflict. Once again, understanding is the key.

Third : Need peoples help is something usual. But always asking help is not good. We will look not independent and spoiled. But it doesn't mean that we can't help each other, but as a personal too often asking help to the people isn't too good. The good one is if we keep often to offering help :)

Fourth : Keep our promises. When we do it, we'll get  the trust the people around us then we are ready to get a bigger responsibility that has a bigger gain too :)

That's all the things that I think important for us, specially for me, to understand.

So keep our friendship "healthy" :D

How to keep the "line" on a friendship

On this last days, may be because we were in the same situation, me and friends are getting closer. Studying, laughing, walking around, lunch and many more we do it together. We are six, 3 men and 3 women.
What I like the most from our friendship is the joke. We are teasing each other. But one thing that I want to put attention on it, that even we are getting closer then before but, we have to still hav "the line".

What I mean about "the line" is the limitation of the joke. Sometimes what the men say is something that can make us as a woman feel uncomfortable, even they think that it just a joke. For example, things that lead to the sex. Often we reprimand them if it is like that.

It's very important to keep our line, so one side doesn't think that they feel aggrieved. Actually, it's a bit hard to do that, because we feel that it's just a joke. But once again, friendship still need "a line" between men and women.

Sincerity

Sometimes, when we do something, we want someone to appreciate what we have done. We want them to see it and think that we are good because do that thing. When we are in this situation, means we are unwilling to do so. It just because the judging of the people.

All religions teach the same thing, that if want to do something, it has to because of we want the blessing of the God. So at the end, we could reach the happiness in hereafter life. We need the sincerity to do all that things. Without it, everything means nothing in front of the God.

Persiapan UAS Semester 1 :D

Besok adalah hari UAS pertama di semester 1 ini. Sangat "mendebarkan", hasil belajar selama 4 bulan ini akan diuji hasilnya mulai besok hingga tangga 21 Desember 2012. Dengan 1 hingga 3 lembar soal, akan menentukan nasib kami, para mahasiswa S2 PPIE UI, di semester selanjutnya.

UAS pertama adalah Mikroekonomi, kemudian Matematika, Ekonometri dan terakhir Makroekonomi. Sejak dua hari yang lalu, belajar tambahan semakin di"gencarkan". Kami belajar hingga matahari sudah tidak tampak lagi. Benar-benar rekor. hehe. Selama kuliah S1 dulu, belajar persiapan ujian tidak pernah seserius ini. hehe. Tapi tidak berarti bahwa saya kuliahnya gak serius ya. hhe

Berharap agar UAS besok hingga hari terakhir, berjalan dengan lancar dan sukses, untuk saya dan semua mahasiswa UI yang sedang menjalankan UAS.

We must be Lucky!!!!!

When our passion is different

This posting really talking about what I'm thinking right now
I'm thinking about "the passion". My passion and "his" passion.
When we are in a relationship with someone, respect each other is the key to keep the relationship.
But when one side start to feel uncomfortable with their partner passion, that's the time when their patient is tested. It's a simple thing, but hard to do.

Iwan Setyawan, an Author

I've attended an event, an interesting event, "Bicara Karya". This event was conducted by Vokasi University of Indonesia. The purpose of this event was to encourage the youth creativity for solving the problems around them in a different and fun way.

One of the speaker was Iwan Setyawan, the author of 9 summers 10 autumns. Actually I don't read yet the novel, but by listening Mas Iwan story about their family, and how he chase his dream, I do really believe that, that novel is a great novel. Mas Iwan really an funny people, he has his own way to speak up his idea, how he explain to the participant and his body language is so unique.

Before this event, I didn't know at all about who is Iwan Setyawan. Until a woman came to him and asked for his signed and wanted to take a picture with him. Just realized that he is an author. But  still didn't know what the tittle of his novels, until he said it when he told us about his life.

He is so inspiring one. Came from a poor family, but could reach his career until to the overseas, New York.
He said that, a rich one who has much money and buy anything in order to look glamour in front of many people is so common things, what the special and cool thing is when we are rich because of our knowledge. Read! and Read!.

He gave us some steps to be "success" :
1. Read! a cool and reach one is who likes to read.
2. Writing! Just write, anything. Everybody has that talent until they want to try hard.
3. Lear about world language. It's a must in this globalization time.
4. Learn how to speak in front of many people
5. Have a leadership.
6. And Be nice to the others. For all the people.

He tought us how to be successfull without thinking the instant way.
We have to work to get our dreams.

So, start to act right now! :)

"Menahan" Diri

Tidak jarang di lingkungan sekitar kita melihat orang yang meluapkan emosinya ketika marah, baik itu dengan kata-kata maupun dengan tindakan fisik. Dan terkadang dengan mudahnya kita mengatakan bahwa orang itu sangat bodoh karena tak mampu menahan emosinya sehingga merugikan orang lain. (Baiknya kembalikan ke diri masing-masing dan berusaha memperbaiki diri juga)

Menahan/mengendalikan diri dari rasa amarah memanglah sangat susah, hingga diriwayatkan dalam satu hadits "siapakah yang kalian anggap perkasa?" kami menjawab: "orang-orang yang tidak bisa dikalahkan oleh siapapun" Nabi saw bersabda: "bukan itu, tetapi orang-orang yang dapat mengendalikan dirinya pada saat marah" (HR. Muslim)

*semoga bermanfaat :)

My Converse Shoes! :D

My converse shoes that I got from Mr Song, the owner of Converse Indonesia! :D
I was attending a seminar that was talking about the partnership between Indonesia and Korea. One of the speaker was Mr Song CK, the owner of Converse, Eagle and others shoes company in Indonesia.
He gave that shoes as a gift because I answered his question. He is very kind man and have a smiling face. when he talk, the room could become a fun room, he is so funny.

Actually, I don't like much to use a shoes like that, too sporty. I'm a bit feminin. hhe
But when I tried to use it, it was so comfortable. Planning to use for jogging :D

Thanks a lot Mr Song :D

My Life Purpose :)

Dilema

Sedang membaca buku "Nikmatnya Pacaran Setelah Pernikahan" karya Salim A. Fillah.
Baru mulai pada bagian pertama, dan masih sangat awal, tapi buku ini sudah banyak memperlihatkan dosa-dosa yang saya perbuat. :( . Malu pada Allah dan Rasul-Nya. Tuntunan hidup sudah jelas di depan mata, namun dosa tetap dikerjakan seolah itu adalah kebenaran.

Tidak jarang saya berfikir untuk menyudahi hubungan "pacaran" yang saya jalani sekarang. Tapi pada waktu yang bersamaan pula, beribu-ribu alasan datang menghalangi niat itu. Menandakan masih lemahnya iman di dalam diri ini. Mendahulukan dunia yang sudah tau akan semakin menjauhkan diri dari ridho dan surga-Nya.

Pernikahan yang dicita-citakan masih belum dapat dicapai. Ridho orang tua adalah ridho dari Allah. Ketika saat ini ridho mereka belum didapatkan, mungkin itu berarti Allah masih memberi kesempatan pada saya dan "dia" untuk saling memperbaiki diri, sebelum kemudian kami melangkah pada tahap yang mempunyai tanggung jawab yang besar. Atau mungkin saja niat menuju pernikahan ini masih belum sesuai ajaran-Nya sehingga Dia belum mengijinkan kami untuk mencicipi nikmat-Nya yang besar itu.

Semoga Allah memudahkan jalan kita kepada kebenaran-Nya.
Aamiin ya Robbal aalamiinnn

New experience! Teaching Kids! :D

Yesterday, 8 December 2012 was the first time for me to teach some kids! I was joining in my friends school. The name of that school is Sekolah Bermain Matahari (SBM). The parents don't need to pay anything for this school. This school is free for peoples. In this school trying to give some fun learning method to study, not sticky as school as usual. The children playing, drawing and coloring, and then take some rest for meals and then go back to their home. The children only study for one hour. Based on the their behaviour, that children only can focus on study maximum for 20 minutes. Because children easy to get boring.
 
 A boy in the picture below is one of the student. His name is Bagas. He is cute! and smart. When all the studet already go back, he didn't want to leave the school. He said "Star..". And suddenly it made all the teachers a little suprised, no one the teacher ever promising a star. So Naya, one of the teacher, draw a star on a label then paste it on Bagas clothe. But he still didn't want to leave the school!. We were confusing hehe. Then Naya tried again to draw a star and cut the label as star form then gave it to Bagas. What a suprise! he was smiling, hehe!. It turns out that he wanted is a star-sticker!

That was one of funny experience about children. And I'm sure that there will be many more stories that seems to be interesting :D

His 25th Birthday :)

Yesterday, 6th December 2012 was his birthday, my dear man, Farid. It was his 25th birthday. this was his second birthday since we are in a relationship. But I'm in Depok and his is in Makassar, so I could only gave him the take *you can see the cake's picture  below hhe* by asking help to his friend at his office. And it works! Actually I gave him a birthday gift too, but it doesn't arrive yet to his office, hopefully the persent will arriving today. :)

407's Holiday:D

All the peoples in the picture below are my new friends for this last three months. I forget the date, but at the time we went to Puncak for short holiday. Just for two hours and then go back to our home. Along that two hours we took some picture. It was a nice place, cold and there is a waterfall there, you can see the waterfall at behind us.

Even it was just for two hourrs, but it could refresh our mind from a bit stress mind because of the study hhe.

After Wana Wisata, we went to Cimory. Cimory is a complete shop, it has a restaurant and supermarket. In that supermarket, there are many kinds of thing made by milk was sold there. It's nice place too for your family for having some holiday. Nice place for taking some pictures too hhe.

Belajar dari kehidupan sekitar

Saat ini saya sedang melanjutkan studi S2 saya di Pascasarjana FE UI, jurusan PPIE. Mahasiswanya terdiri dari berbagai macam karakter dan latar belakang kehidupan yang berbeda-beda. Kebanyakan dari kami adalah pegawai yang bekerja pada instansi pemerintahan, beberapa yang lain adalah pebisnis, pegawai swasta. Kalau saya pribadi masuk ke dalam golongan pengangguran sukarela hehe. Saya tidak bekerja di instansi manapun. Saya melanjutkan studi saya dengan mendapatkan beasiswa dari ADB (Ayah Dan Bunda) hehehe.

Dari keberagaman ini lah saya sedikit belajar bahwa, meskipun kita berbeda latar belakang hingga usia yang terlampau jauh, kita masih bisa belajar bersama tanpa ada yang merasa tersisihkan. Saling membantu kekurangan teman-teman. Yang menguasai materi suatu mata kuliah, maka dia akan mengajarkan atau membantu teman untuk mengerti materi yang belum terlalu dipahami.

Fasilitas yang diperoleh dari FE di Universitas Indonesia  ini sangat memadai. Ruangan kelas yang nyaman, fasilitias internet yang mudah, laboratorium komputer yang setiap saat dapat digunakan, perpustakaan yang menyediakan berbagai macam sumber literatur, kantin, toilet yang bersih, musholla, bank, atm, dll semua tersedia. Semua tergantung dari mahasiswanya apakah mau memanfaatkan semua fasilitas itu dengan maksimal atau tidak. Saya pribadi belum melakukan itu, hhe

Tapi, sore tadi, saya menonton acara reality show di salah satu stasiun tv swasta. Menayankan profil keluarga miskin. Sepasang suami istri dengan tiga anak yang tinggal di tengah-tengah perkebunan dengan rumah yang hanya berbentuk kotak tanpa ada aliran listrik. Jika malam hanya dibantu oleh penerangan dari lampu minyak. Sang suami hanya bekerja sebagai pembuat madu semut, dengan penghasilan yang tidak menentu. Pulang ke rumah pun tidak bisa dia lakukan setiap hari karena pekerjaannya yang sulit dan jauh dari rumahnya. Yang ditayangkan tadi, sang suami baru pulang ke rumah setelah dua hari mencari madu semut dan hanya membawa 20ribu perak. Sangat sedih melihatnya. Sang istri akan mencari sumber penghasilan lain jika sang suami belum pulang membawa uang. Biasanya sang istri akan mencari tanaman paku, mulai dari pagi hari hingga sore hari dan itupun hanya mampu menghasilkan 3ribu rupiah. Begitu miris jika dibandingkan dengan apa yang saya dan teman di universitas ini dapatkan.

Saya sangat bersyukur dengan apa yang saya dapatkan saat ini. Benar kata ajaran agama Islam, untuk persoalan agama, lihatlah orang-orang yang di atas mu, agar engkau cemburu kepada mereka dan berusaha pula memperbanyak amal, sedangkan untuk persoalan dunia, lihatlah orang-orang di bawahmu, agar kamu selalu bersyukur kepada Sang Pencipta.

Do'aku untuk mereka...
"Ya Allah, berilah makan kepada saudara-saudara hamba yang sedang kelaparan, kesembuhan kepada mereka yang sedang sakit, berilah pekerjaan kepada mereka yang sedang mencari pekerjaan, mudahkanlah rejeki para penuntut ilmu, dan jauhkanlah kami dari murka Mu dan apa neraka Mu. Aamiinn aamiinn Ya Robbal alamiinnnn "

Being a Supervisor! :D

Today was the first time for me became a supervisor of the entering to university test. Even just for a half day, but it was giving me some valuable experiences. There were :
1. Must put attention to the small thing. Sometimes we are negligent about that, until we realize that has a big impact for us. Today, I did a mistake. When I collected the answer sheet of the test participant,  I forgot to take three answer sheets of them and realized it when the envelope of the sheets was sealed. It was because I was negligent!.

2. Be patient. Waiting is so bored thing to do. Even we know that what we are waiting for is something real. Such as waiting for him to propose me, hehehe. The test was begun at 7 am and finish at 12.30 pm. Quite long for making my legs stiff. hehe. But that was the job, supervise the exam. Have to be patient and careful.

hmm, a bit sleepy, hehe,, that's all for tonight! hehe